Thursday, November 16, 2000 01:03 p.m.

Cast in the name of God, ye not-a guilty! we have came to tear, BIG O!

That's SUPPOSED to be 'Cast in the name of God, ye not guilty! We have come to terms, BIG O!' God, I love engrish sometimes XD Puu-sama is sending me Big O music. I love her. *_*

Speaking of the Big O, I have been rather prolific the past couple days and finished up some fanart:
At Least it's Not Black... is Big O Christmas fanart, as requested by Puu for Genkiland's December layout.
A Friend Who's Dressed in Leather is Vash fanart that I finished last night. What do you people think? Let me know! I had scanned this in before it was done; it's here if you care to see.
Finally, I also started Wings Too Small To Fly also. It's obviously not done yet ^^; Now, I normally don't have titles for my pics; most of the titles I'd come up with sound pretentious. However, these pictures basically named themselves. The title of the Trigun art came from the Placebo song "Pure Morning" that I was listening to at the time.

Last night was a wonderful capstone to an aboslutely special day :P :P I blogged about it, but of COURSE my compy crashed before I could hit the 'done!' button -_-;; Oh well. Anyhoo, I am DETERMINED to be genki today. I am not going to let anything get in the way of that! Woo!

o/~ Do! Do! Do! Dreaming! Dreaming! o/~ (The CCS 2nd OP just came on Winamp. Yay!)

Wednesday, November 15, 2000 05:09 p.m.

I know, I know I've let you down..I've been a fool to myself...I thought that I could live for noone else....

Ok, so today did NOT go at all the way I wanted to. It started out with me sleeping through my alarm. At least I didn't dream that the alarm was calling out Shinesman colors like I did on Monday (I'm not kidding. "SHINESMAN MOSS GREEN!" *slaps alarm*)Anyhoo, I was late to work, and when I got there there were two people waiting for me >_< I felt really bad for being late, even though they were unannounced. Anyhoo, one of them gave me a project and asked if it could be done by Monday. Guess I'll be working over the weekend.....Anyhoo, I get home and eat lunch, and watch my computer clock to make sure I'm not late. Turns out my computer clock was somehow half an hour SLOW >>_<< so I missed my first class, which I swore I wouldn't miss. So I went over and talked to Nekochan for a while, and wandered back to my room to get my books and go to Japanese...and the door was locked. My roomie had left and locked my keys in the room. That on top of everything else that had been happening (I'll get to that in a minute) just got to be too much, so I just cried in Cat's room instead of going to class, since by the time I got a key, came back, got my coat and books, and left for class, I would have missed most of it. GAH! Ever have one of those days?

Well, the thing that I am most upset about is the fact that one of my best friends isn't talking to me right now. It was really my fault for making him want to avoid me, too. I was hit with a major internal clue-by-four (as Puuchan puts it) the other day that made me realize what a baka I was, but now it seems to be too late to do much about it. I just hope that if I give him the space he wants, it will be okay eventually. But as for now, I'm pretty lonely with most of my close friends at least an hour away from here. I can't glomp onto Cat ALL the time ^^; and while I adore and am really grateful for the people who have given me support online, especially Puuchan and oniisan and Tchan, I can't go shopping or hang out and watch anime with people who are an hour's drive ( or a two-hour plane ride) away :( Bah. I need to be less dependant on people.

So that was my crappy day. I hope that most of you had a better day than me :)

On the CD player: Komm, Süsser Tod (thus the quote on top)

Tuesday, November 14, 2000 06:02 p.m.

You know there's always more than one way to say exactly what you mean to say

Janaki-san, gomen nasai! I know *exactly* what intersection you mean, since I live less than five minutes from it. (I live in Kings Point, which is a subdivision off Rohlwing Rd between Army Trail and Lake). I know a lot of people that live in the Farmwood/Foxdale area, and a lot of them are rich bratty assholes who think that stoplights are challenges to their Mustangs >_< Well, at least it wasn't Lake and Rohlwing. That's a REALLY dangerous place to be stranded. It's good that someone stopped, though! There are some nice Addisonians out there ^_- By the way, DePaul is already out for the semester? O_o Wow. I guess that means my friend Jen is home, then ^^;

I've been thinking about doing a Japanese blog, but 1.My Japanese really, really sucks, and 2. I'm having issues with my IME. It doesn't like me much. Stupid Microsoft! (Sorry, oniisan ^^;)

Ok, so this is annoying me. I am currently taking Survey of Art III (art history with a fancy name :P) and it's in a very small, very inappropriate room. There are two slide projectors at the back of the room, then 25 desks crammed into the middle, and a podium off to the side. Anyhoo, the problem is, if you sit in the front row in one of two particular desks, the shadow of your head will cover up part of the slide. It's really annoying. I've been stuck in one or another of the seats before, and I spent an hour and 15 minutes with my head craned to the side and out of the way, for the sake of courtesy. Now, there is one guy in the class who is very tall and always wears a damned baseball cap (can you see where this is leading? ^^;) that ALWAYS sits in the offending seat. This pisses me off greatly; I am surprised the instructor hasn't at least asked him to *move* his head on occasion. No, instead she just works around the shadow taking up 1/4 of the screen. This was particularly annoying today when she was listing off significant features of a Dali painting, and of course the asshole's head is in the way. He didn't even attempt to move; he just sat there like a rock. If I sat closer to him, I would have asked him to move; as it was, I was sorely tempted to throw something at him :P I hate morons. (By the way, there are plenty of other seats to sit in in this room).

Ok, with that rant over with...I worked on three (!) pics today; none of them are done, but I may scan them in anyways, and post them here to tortue you all with.

Current music: Billy Joel - We Didn't Start the Fire

Tuesday, November 14, 2000 12:44 p.m.

Fear the black cow...BLACK COW!

Ok, I do fear the black cow, Krisit. But that's beside the point XD

Hmm. This block of work time annoys me. I am scheduled to work from 12-1, but my class goes til 12:15, so I really only work from 12:20 until 1. That's hardly enough time for me to get anything done, and by this time all the daily-type work is done (usually by me since I open the lab every day) and everyone is at lunch, so nobody comes in. Yawn. Oh well, I get paid.

I want to go home and play with my Vash figure (not like that, Puu :P), but I have to study for my kanji quiz and eat something. I noticed that I've eaten three meals in the last three days, but I'm not really hungry very often. Weird. It's probably the nasty dorm food doing something strange to me :P

Listening to: nothing; my CD's are still at home T_T Maybe I'll attack the music on Matt's FTP >D

Tuesday, November 14, 2000 10:31 a.m.

Oh Nick, please not so quick.....

Yes, yes, Puu-pyo, that conversation was rather...interesting. (By the way, I am Oruha, Puu is KowaiBear [think Di Gi Charat XD] and Akusesu is our non-blogging Rin-chan.) I couldn't help it! It was prolly because that conversation was just after Cat and I had just had far too much fun shopping and working on our Secret Covert Operation (which I will tell you all about at some later point ^_-). Anyhoo, I got my Vash the Stampede toy! WAI!!! It's so cool *_* Thank you, Emi, for tipping me off about it. It's made by McFarlane Toys and it's the best-quality action figure I've ever seen *_* Granted, I don't buy all that many action figures, but still..... I love it. I want to go home right now and stare at it *_* Ok, so I am just a tad obsessed :P

I am feeling a whole lot better than I did when I wrote the last blog entry, by the way. I got a lot of my confusion cleared up, and now I just want things to go back to normal, and I know I can do that, even though I wasn't very good at it this past week ^^; Oh, and yes, Puu cheered me up greatly with the hilarious Japanese Big O art XD I especially liked the one of Dorothy sitting on Roger. Ho ho ho! She's awfully heavy, though...wouldn't she break him, Puu? O_o No, I mean PHYSICALLY! I know what you're thinking ¬_¬

Ok, that's it for me, for now. I suppose I should get some actual work done, ne? ^_-

Music: Nothing T_T I forgot my CD's at home :(

Monday, November 13, 2000 11:41 a.m.

I said all the right things at exactly the right time, but I mean nothing to you and I don't know why...

Vertical Horizon....pop in a can. :P Anyhoo, Kya-chan, I'm not into yaoi, really, but I just *knew* that Puuchan was going to say that to me, so I beat her to the punch. It was the first episode of volume 4, by the way. We haven't seen the other two yet ;_; But yes, Trigun is a wonderful wonderful thing. I have made it through entire weeks with only the promise of Trigun at the end. *sigh* I wish that Trigun 4 was available for rent at the local comic shop! I want more, damnit! And there is no JAC for three long weeks, since those lucky bastards at UIUC get a whole week off for Thanksgiving, while cheap ISU only gives us Thursday and Friday.

Speaking of Thanksgiving, I am going to try and go to Mitsuwa on Saturday if anyone wants to meet me there ^_^_v And I finally get to go see the Neo-Futurists on that Friday! Yay! I wuv you, Nicole, even though I know you're not reading this ^^;

*angst- feel free to skip this part, esepcially if you have no clue what I am talking about ^^;*

I was going to write about how it's already been three weeks since I broke up with my boyfriend and how I feel a lot better now than I did, but the truth is I feel rather shitty right now. Oh, don't get me wrong, I am over my ex, but life just keeps throwing me more curves. Bah! I suppose this is pretty much my fault, but oh well. I don't know if I should write this in here, but Catherine yelled at me for retreating behind my happy-Julie bubble last night, so I really should talk with my heart instead of my head somewhere. So right now I am hurt, and confused, and getting all sorts of mixed messages. I understand what I was told last night, but that doesn't change things any. I don't know if I am making any sense at all, but oh well. I guess I am a little slow, but I'm not exactly objective, either. I just hope to God that I am wrong and Catherine is right.

Monday, November 13, 2000 12:27 a.m.

By now you shoulda somehow realized what you gotta do...I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now...

Yes, I have taken to quoting lyrics in my titles :P

Yes,Puu, I liked Petshop of Horrors XD How evil! Ho ho ho! I did absolutely nothing today. I went out and bought a birthday present, and a lot of chocolate (shut up, Cat :P). It felt like a long continuation of last night, where nobody wanted to hang out with me, so I just didn't do anything. Bah. I used to love all the alone time I could get. What happened to my anti-social tendencies? Oh, wait. I know. But that's another story :P

I did a new piece of fanart! It's the first decent thing I have drawn in (literally) a month. Stress gets in the way of any drawing ability I have. I really hate that...especially when I have stuff I need to get done, such as the illustrations I am doing for my second job. It's one of the most frustrating things in the world to stare blankly at a piece of paper and be unable to do anything to it, even when I have some idea of what I want to draw. Anyhoo, I finished this Piyoko fanart today. You all will be crushed by insane Di Gi Charat cuteness! Piyoko is my favorite, and you just may find me in #yaoshi with that nick on occasion; in a similar fashion, Puu is Puchiko and Cat is Rabi~en~Rose. That makes Krisit Degiko by default XD That's what you get for being slow on the ball on Friday, k-pyo! Oh, and I want my Digimon slap bracelet back ;_; Oh well. I should head off to bed; work calls bright and early tomorrow @_@ Ja~

There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how...cause baby, you're gonna be the one that saves me...
Both the top quote and the bottom quote are Oasis - Wonderwall.

P.S. Cat, I've said this to Laura many times, and it bears repeating - in certain matters, I am nearly always right, and that REALLY sucks.

Saturday, November 11, 2000 06:28 p.m.

Tell me what, tell me what, tell me what you want...

Yup. Back from the wild party *snicker* at Puu-pyo's. We terrorized Damon's (Hentai team! Ho ho ho!), watched lots of anime (*juri* what's on now? Initial D? Ok....zzzzzzzz.) and played lots of DDR. Went to bed as the sun went up, then got up and went to JAC at 1 pm. Today's episode of Trigun still has me sparkling like Tomoyo on crack, and The Big O was great, too. Too bad that there is only one more episode of it.... *sniffle*

Well, now I am home, and I am rather lonely. It's Saturday night, and I am probably staying home, since everyone else seems to be busy. Maybe I should have stayed in Champaign with Cat. I hate being stuck home alone when I want to be doing things. Same thing happened last week, too, but that time I was stood up :P

T-chan, I can and will destroy all judges in your way >D I know what you mean about the stars...on the way back from JAC a couple weeks ago, I opened up Brian's sunroof and just stared at the stars the whole way back. It was a wonderful, peaceful feeling, and I really wish I could see stars more often. Alas, being from Chicago suburbs and living directly next to an interstate, I get a lot of light pollution ;_;
By the way, you and Puu must take turns being seme. Kami-sama has spoken, remember? XD

Listening to: nothing right now; I think I will go hunt down some songs that have been tickling the back of my brain for the past few weeks. ^_^_v

Thursday, November 9, 2000 09:54 a.m.

Can we catch the tears of a broken world?

I love the Xenogears theme ^_^ Anyhoo, today is another day at work. I got to vacuum a meeting room. Woohoo. But it's STILL raining outside, which makes me genki. Last night RJ, Matt, Cat, and I went out shopping, and I got to play in the rain =D I also picked up some RAM and a cable for my PSX (thanks, Matt ^^), but the place that sells plug mods closes at 7! Grr! Oh well. I will be well distracted by Final Fantasy 8.

Ok, my computer is an incredible POS. First, I could not figure out what type of RAM I needed for my crappy Acer Aspire, and their site was no help at all. First, I went to the site to try and figure it out. Since I wasn't sure what model number it was (I couldn't find it. Anywhere. Ask my brother :P), I put in the part number....which was apparently not in the database. So after searching every inch of my computer, we FINALLY found the model number on the back. Guess what? The model number wasn't in their database either. Apparently my computer doesn't exist :P So finally we deduced that I needed your basic PC100 DIMM type RAM. Well, I went to the store, picked up 32mb, and went home happy...until I discovered that my computer only has two RAM slots. (Those cheap Acer bastards!) Both slots had 16mb in them. So, instead of getting the 32mb I paid for, I got 16 (since I had to take out the 16 mb card to put the 32mb card in). I hate my computer ._.# Well, the boost up to 64mb is helping (there's 16mb onboard as well), but I am still vastly annoyed. Guess that teaches me that I should never trust my computer; I should ALWAYS open it up and look. I have lots of interesting stories about my computer; including major problems with the hard drive, USB ports, various random cables.... bah. I will save those stories for later, though. (Lucky for you!)

Hmm, what else. Krisit, what's going on tomorrow? o_o Puu wants us to go to Champaign, which is fine with me...in fact, I don't care too much where we go ^^;

Oh, I took the X character quiz, but I saved my list to my home box, so I can't post it now. I think my top match was Seiichirou O_o Weird.

Music: Thousand Arms opening theme. Great song, HILARIOUS game XD Puu, we must defeat the bishounen master! HO HO HO!

Wednesday, November 8, 2000 06:29 p.m.

No black and white in the blue....

This song is describing my mood so well. Maybe it's the Mountain Dew or the pain medication talking, but I feel better now than I have in the past month. Mellow, like the song. Free, too, like in the song. Maybe it was the happy head people at SCS helping me put things in perspective. In any case, I hope I never feel that crappy again. I just have to learn how to take time for myself and turn off the rest of the world without feeling seflish and guilty. Oh, and I have to get things back on track with my schoolwork. Fortunately, my mom was supernice and understanding when I talked to her today. That made things a lot easier! Even though she had some super-bad news for me ;_; It's ok, though. Anyhoo, I will blog more later...Ja!

Free, wanna be free, gotta know free...